*short*

here a short update of my already pathetic life:

1. Finaly got promoted
2. Im very very very very very very busy
3. im having a “phase” with all the changes in the office
4. im now plaing eudemons
5. now working on a “pet” project
6. Im very very very very very very busy
7. im not attending choir practice that much
8. a “friend” of mine made itself invissible in YM (Gotcha looser!)
9. xxxholic ep. 20 hasnt been uploaded yet….
10. bleach ep. 95 hasnt been uploaded yet…
11. I have official access with YM already

*corner*

No matter the feeling.. if they’re in your mind, they are yours. therefore… if you agree with them, that alone makes them right.
what is and isn’t right varies from person to person. happiness also varies from person to person.

–xxxholic
– yuuko ichihara

*Pilgrim’s Theme- lyrics*

Pilgrim’s Theme

Tired of weaving dreams too loose for me to wear
Tired of watching clouds repeat their dance on air
Tired of getting tired of doing what’s required
Is life a mere routine in the greater scheme of things

Through with taking roads someone else designed
Through with chasing stars that soon forget to shine
Through with going through one more day - what’s new
Does my life still mean a thing in the greater scheme of things

REFRAIN 1:
I think I’ll follow the voice that calls within
Dance to the silent song it sings
I hope to find my place
So my life can fall in place
I know in time I’ll find my place
In the greater scheme of things

Each must go his way, but how can I decide
Which path I should take, who will be my guide
I need some kind of star to lead me somewhere far
To find a higher dream in the greater scheme of things

The road before me bends, I don’t know what I’ll find
Will I meet a friend or ghosts I left behind
Should I even be surprised that You’re with me in disguise
For it’s Your hand I have seen in the greater scheme of things (REFRAIN 1)

BRIDGE:
For Yours is the voice in my deepest dreams
You are the heart, the very heart
Of the greater scheme of things (REFRAIN 1)

REFRAIN 2:
Why don’t we follow the voice that calls within
Dance to the silent song it sings
One day we’ll find our place
For all things fall in place
For all things have a place
In the greater scheme of things

*Your Heart Today- lyrics*

Your Heart Today

Where there is fear I can allay
Where there is pain I can heal
Where there are wounds I can bind
And hunger I can fill

REFRAIN:
Lord, grant me courage
Lord, grant me strength
Grant me compassion
That I may be Your heart today

Where there is hate I can confront
Where there are yokes I can release
Where there are captives I can free
And anger I can appease (REFRAIN)

BRIDGE:
When comes the day I dread
To see our broken world
Compel me from my cell grown cold
That Your people I may behold

Where there is fear I can allay
Where there is pain I can heal
Where there are wounds I can bind
And hunger I can fill (REFRAIN)

CODA:
And when I’ve done all that I could
Yet there are hearts I cannot move
Lord, give me hope
That I may be Your heart today

*I Seek You for I Thirst-lyrics*

I Seek You for I Thirst

REFRAIN:
Though many times I run from You in shame
I lift my hands and call upon Your name
For underneath the shadow of Your wings
My melody is You

O Lord, I seek You for I thirst
Your mercy is the rain on the desert of my soul

O Lord, I raise my lifeless eyes and see Your glory shine
How Your kindess overflows (REFRAIN)

O Lord, Your sanctuary calls
I yearn to be with You in the rivers of Your love (REFRAIN)

*How Lovely Is Your Dwelling Place- lyrics*

How Lovely Is Your Dwelling Place

REFRAIN:
How lovely is Your dwelling place
O, Lord, mighty God, Lord of all.

Even the lowly sparrow finds a home for her brood,
and the swallow, a nest for herself
where she may lay her young
in Your altars, my King and my God. (REFRAIN)

Blessed are they whose dwelling is Your own, Lord of peace.
Blest are they refreshed by springs and by rain
when dryness daunts and scathes.
Behold my Shield, my King and my God. (REFRAIN)

I would forsake a thousand other days anywhere
if I could spend one day in Your courts,
belong to You alone.
My strength are You alone,
my Glory, my King and my God. (REFRAIN)

CODA:
How lovely, Your dwelling place
O, Lord, mighty God, Lord of all.

[The lowliest of creatures has a place in God’s home, and yet what space is left for God? The foxes have lairs and the birds have nests, yet the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head, save in the hearts of those who love and believe.]

My Saint

A Novena to Saint Therese

(say all 7 prayers for 9 consecutive days).

O great Saint Therese, through your devotion and prayer life, you lived an example of your love for God. Help me to grow closer to God, living in honesty with myself and with others. Teach me to grow in faith, believing that He will always hear my prayers. I pray that I may be strengthened by God’s love and renewed in my spiritual commitment. Amen.

O Saint Therese, help me to release my fears to you. Open my heart to God’s love and send a “shower of roses” to intercede for me in times of need. Bring my prayer requests before the Lord: (mention your needs here). With your loving care, reach out to all of God’s people who seek His unconditional forgiveness. Please fill us with patience and peace of mind, and guide us with your gentle hand. Amen.

Beloved Saint Therese, you showed us how to live in God’s example through your “little way.” Lead us to the light of God and the beauty of His Kingdom. Teach us how to see the good in everyone we meet and the beauty in ourselves. O Saint Therese, help me to remember that Our Lord waits for me at the end of this life. Keep me hopeful and longing for the day when I can meet you and all my departed loved ones in heaven. Amen.

O Saint Therese, you suffered silently the unbearable pain of your illness–please be with me and my loved ones during our times of suffering. Help me to understand God’s Will. Through my suffering, help me to better understand the trials others face. O Saint Therese, strengthen me emotionally, spiritually, and physically. Bring comfort to all who whisper your name in prayer and heal them with your loving way. Amen.

I pray to you, Saint Therese, to show me the way to the Lord. Lead me to live for His glory and honor. You gave your life and death to the Lord as a sacrifice for others’ salvation. Pray that I may become like you, and that He may welcome my acts of kindness toward others as a humble offering. Amen.

I pray to you, Saint Therese, to help me face each day with God in my heart and by my side. Show me how to see God in everything around me and to grow closer to Him in my triumph and failure, joy, and sorrow. Remind me that He is everywhere, and that He will be there to brighten even my darkest days. Let your devotion be a steady inspiration for me, and give me the strength and courage I need to follow the path to God. Amen.

Loving Saint Therese, pray for me that I may not stray from the Lord. Help me to face temptation with strength and resolve. Make your deep love for God an inspiration for me. Help me to grow closer to God and abandon myself to His Love, so that I may one day rejoice with you in heaven! Amen

http://www.2heartsnetwork.org/Therese.htm

Seasons Of Love by RENT

All:
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Moments so dear
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
How Do You Measure - Measure A Year?
In Daylights - In Sunsets
In Midnights - In Cups Of Coffee
In Inches - In Miles
In Laughter - In Strife

In - Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
How Do You Measure
A Year In The Life?

How About Love?
How About Love?
How About Love?
Measure In Love

Seasons of Love.
Seasons of Love.

Joanne:
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Journeys To Plan

Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
How Do You Measure The Life
Of A Woman Or A Man?

Collins:
In Truths That She Learned
Or In Times That He Cried
In Bridges He Burned
Or The Way That She Died

All:
It’s Time Now - To Sing Out
Though The Story Never Ends
Let’s Celebrate
Remember A Year In The Life Of Friends

Remember the Love
Remember the Love
Remember the Love
Measure In Love

Joanne:
Oh you got to remember the love,
You know that love is a gift from up above
Share love, give love, spread love
Measure, measure your life in love.

ALL
Seasons Of Love
Measure Your Life In Love

Glory of Love lyrics - Peter Cetera

Tonight its very clear
As were both lying here
Theres so many things I want to say
I will always love you
I would never leave you alone

Sometimes I just forget
Say things I might regret
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I dont wanna lose you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
Ill be the hero youre dreaming of
Well live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Youll keep me standing tall
Youll help me through it all
Im always strong when youre beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
Ill be the hero youve been dreaming of
Well live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Just like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time I will save the day
Take you to my castle far away

I am a man who will fight for your honor
Ill be the hero youre dreaming of
Were gonna live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Well live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

We did it all for love
We did it all for love
We did it all for love
We did it all for love

Insatiable lyrics - Darren Hayes

When the moonlight crawls along the street
Chasing away the summer heat
Footsteps outside somewhere below
The world revolves, I let it go
We build our church above the street
We practice love between these sheets
The candy sweetness scent of you
It bathes my skin, I’m stained in you

*dumot*

 Plastic!

       Ororcan!

             Micorwavable!

 Kevs!!

    hehehehehe!!

So Sick by ne yo

So Sick

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

And I’m so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said I’m so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can’t I turn off the radio?
(why can’t I turn off the radio?)
Why can’t I turn off the radio?

sexy love - ne yo

My sexy love… (so sexy…)

[Verse 1]
She makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand up
Just one touch
And I errupt like a volcano and cover her with my love
Babygirl you make me say (Ohh ohhh ohhhh)
And I just can’t think (of anything else I’d rather do)
Than to hear you sing (sing my name the way you do)
When we do our thing (when we do the things we do)
Babygirl you make me say (Ohh ohhh ohhhh)

[Chorus]
Sexy love girl the things you do
(Oh baby baby) Keep me sprung keep running back to you
Who I love making love to you
Babygirl you know your my (sexy love…)

[Verse 2]
I’m so addicted to her she’s the sweetest touch
Just enough
Still too much say that I simp and I’m sprung all of the above
I can’t help she makes me say (Ohh ohhh ohhhh)
And I just can’t think (of anything else I’d rather do)
Than to hear you sing (sing my name the way you do)
When we do our thing (when we do the things we do)
Oh, Babygirl you make me say (Ohh ohhh ohhhh)

[Chorus]
Sexy love girl the things you do
(Oh baby baby) Keep me sprung keep running back to you
Who I love making love to you
Say babygirl you know your my (sexy love…)

[Verse 3]
Oh baby what we do it makes the sun come up
Keep on lovin’ til it goes back down
And I don’t know what I’d do if I would lose your touch
That’s why I’m always keepin’ you around… my sexy love

[Chorus:]
Sexy love girl the things you do (things you do baby)
(Oh baby baby) Keep me sprung keep running back to you (keep me runnin’ back to you)
Who I love making love to you
Say babygirl you know your my (sexy love…)

[Chorus:]
Sexy love girl the things you do (sexy love)
Keep me sprung keep running back to you (keep me runnin’ back to you)
Who I love making love to you
Say babygirl you know your my (sexy love…)

She makes the hairs on the back of my head stand up
Just one touch…

*To Know*

isnt it amazing that there are things you precieve, what you know, what people see, what you want, who really you are.

i have been taking dozen of online personality test and most of them boil to one thing…

im an extrovert, neorotic and ideal..

francis would say im beyond ideal..im a perfectionist..
WTF!!?

i really enjoy things reading about myself… hahahahaha

tsk tsk tsk tsk

its just amazing. how well you think you know yourself or other people.. the pangs of friendship..

francis said even though you where friends for 5 years doesnt mean that you all know each other already.. to know each one should be able to experiece pain and suffering together.. to grow-up together.. to be together.. to be happy..

well in my case i didnt grow up with them.. they didnt share anything to me and i didnt experiece anything with them..

its just fair.. in due time..
time will settle all thing..

*The Friendship*

On Friendship

And a youth said, “Speak to us of Friendship.”

Your friend is your needs answered.

He is your field which you sow with love and reap with thanksgiving.

And he is your board and your fireside.

For you come to him with your hunger, and you seek him for peace.

When your friend speaks his mind you fear not the “nay” in your own mind, nor do you withhold the “ay.”

And when he is silent your heart ceases not to listen to his heart;

For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unacclaimed.

When you part from your friend, you grieve not;

For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence, as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain.

And let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the spirit.

For love that seeks aught but the disclosure of its own mystery is not love but a net cast forth: and only the unprofitable is caught.

And let your best be for your friend.

If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also.

For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill?

Seek him always with hours to live.

For it is his to fill your need, but not your emptiness.

And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.

For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed

*The Nothing*

The only escape I had was to create a black hole inside me. I needed something to absorb all my negative emotions. I needed something to absorb anger, grief, remorse, pain, hate, jealousy, insecurities and pride. This space anomaly was created as a conduit for me to be safe, or I thought it would be.

  Few years ago there was a leakage and it wasn’t able to sustain all the surge of emotions at once. I panicked. A new persona emerged out of this nothingness that even I was scared to see it, to feel it or to put it more precisely accepted it as being part of me.

  I erupted like a violent volcano, like a un-block-able tsunami. I never thought I could cause so much pain and suffering to others in such a small period of time. It was like having the ability of time compression. Nothing existed but those emotions I have been sealing for so long.

  With all the disappointments and failures I created there is always this spark of HOPE that never ceases to shine on my darkest hour. As I accepted my mistakes and acknowledge the imperfections of others I created a seal to support the black hole I designed; for my security hoping that it will never leak out again.

  I can’t share this load to others because they don’t have the heart to bare it with me. They can’t understand. They just do it out of obligation rather than with true love.

  Everything is black and white. No grays or maybes. How long can I stand the loneliness of this planet? When the SILENCE comes everything will be destroyed and the world will just pass by without knowing what was lost.

*sorry*

Im sorry.. I really didnt mean to hurt you..
When you said THANK YOU, I felt small and worthless..
Im sorry.. I could have done better..

They dont know what im sourgraping about..
They cant see through my fake smile..
I could have done better..

Im sorry..
I i tell them it wont make a difference..
They cant help me..
There too bussy and wouldnt care..

For this situation, i dont know how to pray..
I dont know what to ask..

Im not blaming GOD.. nor am i mad about it..
I feel so worthless.. small and insignificant..
I could jave done better..

Im sorry..

*Wake Up - hillary duf*

There’s people talking
They talk about me
They know my name
They think they know everything
But they don’t know anything
About me

Give me a dance floor
Give me a dj
Play me a record
Forget what they say
Cause I need to go
Need to getaway tonight

I put my makeup on a saturday night
I try to make it happen
Try to make it all right
I know I make mistakes
I’m living life day to day
It’s never really easy but it’s ok

Wake Up Wake Up
On a saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London, Paris maybe Tokyo
There’s something going on anywhere I go
Tonight
Tonight
Yeah, tonight

The cities restless
It’s all around me
People in motion
Sick of all the same routines
And they need to go
They need to get away
Tonight

I put my makeup on a saturday night
I try to make it happen
Try to make it all right
I know I make mistakes
I’m living life day to day
It’s never really easy but it’s ok

Wake Up Wake Up
On a saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London, Paris maybe Tokyo
There’s something going on anywhere I go
Tonight
Tonight
Yeah, tonight

People all around you
Everywhere that you go
People all around you
They don’t really know you
Everybody watching like it’s some kind of show
Everybody’s watching
They don’t really know you now
(They don’t really know you)
(They don’t really know you)
And forever

Wake Up Wake Up
(Wake Up Wake Up)
Wake Up Wake Up
(Wake Up Wake Up)

Wake Up Wake Up
On a saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London, Paris maybe Tokyo
There’s something going on anywhere I go

Wake Up Wake Up
On a saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London, Paris maybe Tokyo
There’s something going on anywhere
I go
Tonight
Tonight
Yeah, tonight

*Being Twenty-Something*

They call it the “Quarter-life Crisis.” It is when
you stop going along with the crowd and start
realizing that there are many things about yourself
that you didn’t know and may not like.

What you may not realize is that everyone
reading this relates to it. We are in our best of
times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we
can to figure this whole thing out. 

*need*

Will you be there for me?

if i fall? will you catch me?

if i bleed? will you cry for me?

if i fail? will you see me through?

if i call? will you come?

if im alone? will you be with me?

if i talk? will you listen?

if i die? will you mourn?

Will you be there for me?

if im sad? will you cheer-me up?

if im lost? will you find me?

if i drown? will you rescue me?

if i burn? will you aid me?

if i take a walk? will you accompany me?

Will you be there for me?

i guess not……

your too bussy living your own lives.
but i would just like to tell you that ill always be here for you,
when the time comes that you need me…. ill be waiting…
just tell me….