*sorry*
May 25, 2006Im sorry.. I really didnt mean to hurt you..
When you said THANK YOU, I felt small and worthless..
Im sorry.. I could have done better..
They dont know what im sourgraping about..
They cant see through my fake smile..
I could have done better..
Im sorry..
I i tell them it wont make a difference..
They cant help me..
There too bussy and wouldnt care..
For this situation, i dont know how to pray..
I dont know what to ask..
Im not blaming GOD.. nor am i mad about it..
I feel so worthless.. small and insignificant..
I could jave done better..
Im sorry..
*Wake Up - hillary duf*
May 21, 2006There’s people talking
They talk about me
They know my name
They think they know everything
But they don’t know anything
About me
Give me a dance floor
Give me a dj
Play me a record
Forget what they say
Cause I need to go
Need to getaway tonight
I put my makeup on a saturday night
I try to make it happen
Try to make it all right
I know I make mistakes
I’m living life day to day
It’s never really easy but it’s ok
Wake Up Wake Up
On a saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London, Paris maybe Tokyo
There’s something going on anywhere I go
Tonight
Tonight
Yeah, tonight
The cities restless
It’s all around me
People in motion
Sick of all the same routines
And they need to go
They need to get away
Tonight
I put my makeup on a saturday night
I try to make it happen
Try to make it all right
I know I make mistakes
I’m living life day to day
It’s never really easy but it’s ok
Wake Up Wake Up
On a saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London, Paris maybe Tokyo
There’s something going on anywhere I go
Tonight
Tonight
Yeah, tonight
People all around you
Everywhere that you go
People all around you
They don’t really know you
Everybody watching like it’s some kind of show
Everybody’s watching
They don’t really know you now
(They don’t really know you)
(They don’t really know you)
And forever
Wake Up Wake Up
(Wake Up Wake Up)
Wake Up Wake Up
(Wake Up Wake Up)
Wake Up Wake Up
On a saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London, Paris maybe Tokyo
There’s something going on anywhere I go
Wake Up Wake Up
On a saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London, Paris maybe Tokyo
There’s something going on anywhere
I go
Tonight
Tonight
Yeah, tonight
*Being Twenty-Something*
They call it the “Quarter-life Crisis.” It is when
you stop going along with the crowd and start
realizing that there are many things about yourself
that you didn’t know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where
you will be in a year or two, but then get scared
because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and
that, maybe, those friends that you thought you
were close to aren’t exactly the greatest people
you have ever met, and the people you have lost
touch with are some of the most important ones.
What you don’t recognize is that they are realizing
that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or
insincere but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job… and it is not even close
to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe
you are looking for a job and realizing that you are
going to have to start at the bottom, and that
scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see
what others are doing and find yourself judging
more than usual because suddenly you realize
that you have certain boundaries in your life and
are constantly adding things to your list of what is
acceptable and what isn’t. One minute, you are
insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of
your life. You feel alone and scared and
confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and
you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but
soon realize that the past is drifting further and
further away, and there is nothing to do but stay
where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how
someone you loved could do such damage to you.
Or you lay in bed and wonder why you can’t meet
anyone decent enough that you want to get to
know better. Or maybe you love someone but love
someone else too and cannot figure out why you
are doing this because you know that you aren’t a
bad person.
One-night-stands and random hook-ups start to
look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an
idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the
same emotions and questions over and over, and
talk with your friends about the same topics
because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans, money, the future and
making a life for yourself… and while winning the
race would be great, right now you’d just like to be
a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone
reading this relates to it. We are in our best of
times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we
can to figure this whole thing out.
*need*
May 18, 2006Will you be there for me?
if i fall? will you catch me?
if i bleed? will you cry for me?
if i fail? will you see me through?
if i call? will you come?
if im alone? will you be with me?
if i talk? will you listen?
if i die? will you mourn?
Will you be there for me?
if im sad? will you cheer-me up?
if im lost? will you find me?
if i drown? will you rescue me?
if i burn? will you aid me?
if i take a walk? will you accompany me?
Will you be there for me?
i guess not……
your too bussy living your own lives.
but i would just like to tell you that ill always be here for you,
when the time comes that you need me…. ill be waiting…
just tell me….
Site of the DAY
May 16, 2006
i accidentally bumped on this site while i was checking a definition of the world MILONIC.
Urban Dictionary is a slang dictionary with your definitions.
Define your world.
just check it out: http://www.urbandictionary.com/
*because of you lyrics - kelly clarkson*
May 8, 2006KELLY CLARKSON LYRICS
“Because Of You”
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
*Ever?*
May 5, 2006Ever had the feeling that you really cant please everyone?
or the pangs of friendship?
Ever had the feeling that a part of your childhood is catching up?
or allowing friendship to evolve to the point you see each other as equals or to be a brother or a sister?
Ever had the feeling of regret for not being able to build that bond with someone and knowing its already too late?
Ever had the feeling that you know you are lost or not in the right place?
Ever wished to be a child again? to start over?
